I've chosen DARKNESS

ALONE
IN
THIS
DARKNESS

x FANGGER

Does this darkness have a name?

This cruelty, this hatred, how did it find us?

Did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it?

What happened to us that we now send our children into the world

Like we send young men to war, hoping for their safe return

But knowing that some would be lost along the way.

When did we lose our way?

Consumed by the shadows. Swallowed whole by the darkness.

Does this darkness have a name?

Is it your name?

There comes a time when every life goes off course.

In this desperate moment who will you be?

Will you let down your defenses and find solace in someone unexpected?

Will you reach out?

Will you face your greatest fears bravely or move forward with faith?

Or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul?

Sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life

You expect it to always be there

For you can't remember a time in your life when it wasn't.

But then one day you feel something else

Something that feels wrong, only because it's so unfamiliar.

And in that moment you realize…

You're HAPPY.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

today was orientation day 7! (: hahaha badge initiation too xD and gillian was so cute. she asked me whether i was keeping my candle and i was like yeah. then i asked her why and she was like 'cos you are sec 4 mah so i wanna keep to rmb you'. oh man babeh euu so sweet wor! totally brightened my day (: and yeah i did give my candle to her (:

during lunch right some of my sec 1s come and bully me! they dun even gimme a peaceful lunch! then they poke me and try tying my hair and doing all sorts of weird stuff! i nvr knew i look like the bullyable kind!! hmpf -__-

went training and it was flooding. alice and i got real wet haha. justin mingzhe and liqian were training. but alice and i didnt train at all and just ended up talking to justin and mingzhe the whole time lol. they were telling us about how they have teachers called gek ai kiew but after getting married to a certain mr low, she became low ai kiew(low IQ).

mingzhe and justin tried my gun and both shot a 6. then i tried and my hand was like trembling away like crazy. so i was like 'why i dun i try anyhow whacking and see if i beat you'. and i shot a 10! hahaha so i felt happy abourrit and decided to end training.

alice and i were walking by the reservoir path and it was totally flooded but we didnt know. then mingzhe was walking in front of us (but we didnt noe cos we left safra later) and he called me to warn us about the puddles and how he has already gotten wet. so i was like wun get wet one lah! then walked across by the side and in the end still got my shoes soaked haha (:

mingzhe and i went home by mrt whereas alice went northpoint to meet her mom for dinner. saw alot of rg girls along the way, one of them is a psl haha (but i dunno her name lah xD)

then my mom called me when i was on the train to tell me to go find her at this dental clinic near bradell mrt station. so when i got off the mrt, i was surprised to see liqian. i rmb he lives in bradell too but just happened not to realise that he would be taking the same train too haha. so we walked together cos we were going the same way. not very familiar with him so it felt a lil awkward haha. then we bid farewell when we reach the dental clinic.

the dentist said that my toothache was actually because that tooth is still a baby tooth! hahaha so cute right xD and it was shaky. so she needed to take an xray to see if there's an adult tooth waiting to grow out. but there wasnt! booboo. but she said there was a huge cavity there so i should fill that up first andden see what happens.

now my tooth hurts but hopefully the pain will subside in a few days xD

for now i better go pack for orientation camp bahh. hate packing for camps.

8:41 PM

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