realised how i haven't been online for a few days? yes a few days is considered serious for a 24/7 online person like me haha. that's cos i have vowed to abstain from it so that i can concentrate on my studies after getting back those three damn papers. they were really screwed up and i blame myself for it cos i know i didnt study well enough. why? too much slacking. lol so i promised to only come onlines on saturdays now (for leisure). if i need to use the com for other reasons on the other days, i shall NOT come online so if you happen to see me online on days other than saturday? scold me and make me go offline! hahaha (: set?

anyway these few days life has really suck cos i am just leading a really zombified life. wake up, school, come home, do work, sleep, wake up school... it's just so routine i feel like strangling myself already lol.

after crying that day after getting back the papers, i have (quotes seeepeee) progressed from the emo to the numb stage already. i thought i would have cried again when i reached home but i just started doing work and made myself believe everything was normal. when it never will be.

but whatever, shall talk about what happened today xD real fun haha. went to school in the morning for raffles book day rehearsal. i swear we are the only class who have started lol. anyway met sorn at the bus stop so we went to school together.

alot of ppl were in class and we were just having fun making props and rehearsing. man life rocks, when you are with your friends. andden we ordered macs and had a feast in class (i pray sincerely that no prefects read my blog xD but even if they do, there's no proof for them to book us yeah?)

and this is when emo mood starts - when seeepeee and xian are around lol. the three of us plus ink just sat at one corner and started emoing, talking about how your family won't understand you and how we are just so depressed every day we are just constantly crying and ALL of us had suicidal tendencies (some albeit spastic lol). but fret not, we aren't REALLY suicidal xD

then we continued with props in a really dead mood. seeepeee and i went to a corner to work on the props and we were talking about how dreams never come true, how her america trip won't happen, how i most probably can't get into my desired uni. and we started lamenting about how we dun wanna study in s'pore and fretting about whether we can get into our dream schools. slum joined in too and because of her it became real spastic (:

then they started watching campus superstar videos on youtube lol. and it evolved into watching dances and cheerleading routines.

then seeepeee suggested watching 10 things i hate about you cos she has it in her bag and since we aren't in a rush to finish the stuff. gosh i swear we act like it's post EOYs already man.

but it was real fun we were just lying on the floor and watching the chick flick. pure enjoyment i swear. how i love this feeling of lying there and doing nothing, not having to worry about work or whatever shit.

after that most went home and sorn dharsh yanyee peiting yikai and i stayed back to discuss ORA. we came up with some wicked ideas so check our booth out on ORA! CAFEIGHT! (:

now i am home and moping around. stupid rs report. GRAHH.

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