I've chosen DARKNESS

ALONE
IN
THIS
DARKNESS

x FANGGER

Does this darkness have a name?

This cruelty, this hatred, how did it find us?

Did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it?

What happened to us that we now send our children into the world

Like we send young men to war, hoping for their safe return

But knowing that some would be lost along the way.

When did we lose our way?

Consumed by the shadows. Swallowed whole by the darkness.

Does this darkness have a name?

Is it your name?

There comes a time when every life goes off course.

In this desperate moment who will you be?

Will you let down your defenses and find solace in someone unexpected?

Will you reach out?

Will you face your greatest fears bravely or move forward with faith?

Or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul?

Sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life

You expect it to always be there

For you can't remember a time in your life when it wasn't.

But then one day you feel something else

Something that feels wrong, only because it's so unfamiliar.

And in that moment you realize…

You're HAPPY.

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

me with the long roll of movie tix for the stupidest film on earth - MEN IN WHITE! xD

this guy on the mrt who has a pearl stuck on his shirt lol. i thought it was a leech at first (:

changi airport pictures xD

on the train to changi airport. first time i took it (:

nice escalators haha (:

waiting for them at their belt xD

yitong! xD

here they come! (:

ding tai fung with taiwan ppl! hahaa when we were paying up (: decided to give all our coins and watch the woman's expression but she was pretty much expressionless. boring xD

went to support zhengning yest! hahaha it was really spastic. sorry i am like jumping around now hahaha cos i cant be bothered to upload the other photos earlier (:

anyways. so ky and i were late for the css thing cos our training ends at 630 and we are supposed to be seated at 630 lol. my dad came to fetch us and we stopped halfway to buy dinner from kfc xD i tried the miso crunch thing. pretty nice (:

when we reached mediacorp all the 408 ppl plus weiting and char were waiting for us so we abit paiseh lah haha. then they started clapping and cheering it was damn maluating haha. and i got scolded for being late. MY FAULT IS IT? xD

anyway they led us through this carpark place which was all misty hahaha and we were being spas and going 'IS THIS A DREAM? OMG IT'S JUST A DREAM!' hahaha whatever.

then this dude was like telling us we cant eat in the studio cos ppl throw their rubbish under the seats afterwards and we were reassuring him that we are really considerate and socially responsible ppl haha. so he was like okay fine give me ur seat numbers later i go spot check and we were looking at the tickets and going 'but it's free seating!'

got into the studio finally which was pretty crowded already and we took a real long time deciding where to sit- jj side or zn's side then those who came with jj's tix went to sit at her side while we sat at zn's side.

they passed out posters (:

zhengning deformed hahaha. char's specs btw (:

the show is just what you see on tv haha. but we had to practise so many times before it starts so it got real irritating hahaha.

we were real noisy throughout and guess what? THERE'S A FRICKING MIKE ABOVE US HAHAHA.

there was a break for 1 hr plus so we went outside and chatted. zhiying started telling us all about japan and it got me real excited cos she says you can spot hot guys everywhere you go wheee! hahaha seeepeee and i are gonna have a competition whereby we will each take a shot of a crowd, hers in US and mine in japan, and we will see which one has more hot guys hahaha. and if we can get an indiv shot with the hot guy it's bonus points! hahaha i am so looking forward to that (:

we crapped alot out there and made super alot of noise cos we were laughing damn loudly, unlike the glam and composed girls rgs wants us to be hahaha. but it was so fun i consider coming back for css just to have this short session together (:

anyway results show. it was so nerve-wrecking! javin got out! i am damn sad hahaha. but the funniest thing was when zhengning's cousins weren't there so the guy wanted her to pick two friends to come onstage should she get out. so she said limei and charlene. and the guy pronounced it as 'sherleen' so we just hecked it. then no one stood up so the guy kept asking who was 'sherleen' then everyone turned to our row. so charlene was like omg f--- dun tell me it's me. so i was like reassuring her like no lah he said 'sherleen' and everything. then the guy went back to zhengning and asked where is 'sherleen' and she pointed at charlene and we were all like OMGWTFBBQ hahaha and burst out laughing super loudly. charlene was just swearing f- f- f- the whole time hahaha.

andden when she went down she started acting chio and taking out her glasses and adjusting her hair. YOU SUCKER CHARLENE SOH YATING DABIAN! hahahaha xD

so they left zhengning and jiajun as bottom two. i swear the media hates rg. they just want one of them out. shrugs. anyway so we were really scared and we wanted zhengning to get in lah. so when javin got out (dang it i hate you more mediacorp), weiting and i were speculating. cos javin was second highest and junjie was last but he got in and javin didnt. it was the same for jiajun and zhengning cos zhengning was second and jiajun was last. so we were thinking will jiajun get in instead then? so we were looking at each other worriedly but we said in unison ' at least for a consolation we can see chiobu charlene on tv!' hahahhaa it was just so amusing.

but anyways jiajun got out. but we still love you (: and jiayou zhengning kekex.

anyway on our way out we saw this car xD SEXAYYE HUH? (:

11:10 AM

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