I've chosen DARKNESS

ALONE
IN
THIS
DARKNESS

x FANGGER

Does this darkness have a name?

This cruelty, this hatred, how did it find us?

Did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it?

What happened to us that we now send our children into the world

Like we send young men to war, hoping for their safe return

But knowing that some would be lost along the way.

When did we lose our way?

Consumed by the shadows. Swallowed whole by the darkness.

Does this darkness have a name?

Is it your name?

There comes a time when every life goes off course.

In this desperate moment who will you be?

Will you let down your defenses and find solace in someone unexpected?

Will you reach out?

Will you face your greatest fears bravely or move forward with faith?

Or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul?

Sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life

You expect it to always be there

For you can't remember a time in your life when it wasn't.

But then one day you feel something else

Something that feels wrong, only because it's so unfamiliar.

And in that moment you realize…

You're HAPPY.

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

HOT DEBATE COACH! hahaha i shall go in sequence of today's events and talk about that later k? xD

so many ppl pon school today ah (not all) lah: peiting (get well so darling. so poor thing. getting an allergy cos of STRESS. look what you are doing to us, RG!), arathi (fine she didnt pon sch), dharsh, tiddy xD

what's first period? oooh chem. fun lah cos i did my hw so it was quite relaxing xD i think i like chem (:

math. not bad i like solving problems via synthetic cos it's so tedious. but it's fun(:

ooh we were discussing about horror movies and haunted house during recess. so funny haha.

philo! we watched matrix and started discussing about the whole "real" world issue. i wanna take up philo in future leh i think it's so fricking interesting! haha brains in vats! we were so loser cos we tried out the "so normal it's not normal" method. cos apparently their teacher kevin chong swept his way into a concert backstage and no one realised. cos ppl are too used to seeing sweepers. then he walked backwards into the theatre and the person thought he was walking out. and there was this boy who was late for school so he walked into his class backwards and his teacher thought he was trying to walk out of the classroom so she ordered him to SIT DOWN. isn't that just plain ingenious?! this are perfect proofs of how our brain is so used to convention that it doesnt recognises all these "abnormalities". haha then before we went back for chinese after going to the toilet the whole grp decided that we are gonna walk backwards into the class and see our cl teacher's reaction. then the whole grp pang seh us! only me xian and jo walked backwards and the rest of the class were laughing like crazy and the tcher was giving us weird looks haha. it was so amusing xD philo just rocks (:

hmmm lunch. ooh we had another discussion about stitches. seems like we must have one discussion everyday. so fun! (: those 408 cookies are HORRIBLE! not only are they so overdue, they are either too bitter or too hard! i thought my teeth was gonna drop out man.

we had ss after that and it was so stoned -___- i think the number 10 obviously does not exist in pangpang's brain. she called 1, 5 and naturally you would think she will call 10 next right? but she skipped to 15! then she called 9 and tiddy wasnt here. and i was like shit is she gonna call 10? and she called 11! like woah damn lucky (: ms pang just keep that number frm your brain frm now on too k? xD

rs was collation of surveys. then we had to go find her but she was on mc! yay (:

AFTER SCHOOL! me and sorna the two stalkers haha xD we waited outside 311 where they were having debate inside to wait for the hot debate coach, david, to come. sorna thinks he's damn hot and she-who-does-not-wanna-be-named was scared that i might be disappointed if i have too high hopes of him. then he came and i was like OMIGOSH! and started hyperventilating and laughing like crazy and sorna joined in too haha. he's so HOTHOTHOT! and i accidentally stepped on sorna's foot so i tripped a lil and sorna said i was swooning hahah xD damn at that moment i had the sudden impulse to join debate lol. but i cant make it one lah haha i will just be too engrossed with looking at him then i wun wanna contribute to any discussion haha xD then me and sorna said that we are gonna support every single debate competition next year cos we get to see david and his brother, jon, who is supposedly hotter than him (okay i dun think he is now after seeing his pic)! omigosh i cant wait hahaha xD we are such losers (: but i want a hot coach too! x|

then me and sorn went to get clay's album. well sorn was just accompanying me xD we went orchard cdrama and the person said it was out of stock so i was like damn. then sorna was asking me to go and i was like let me go sembawang first! maybe they have it there. and there was ONE copy left! hahaha and i bought it (:

on the ride home i was like 's' is so eurgh and started listing all the disgusting 's' words like scandalous and sleazy and sloth and all that and she was so frustrated with me hahah. too bad sorna, who asks your name to start with 's'? (:

reached home, listened to clay's album, there's quite alot of cover songs haha xD but he sounded good. and seepee the poster really looks like chocolate haha (:

alright i shall go do sth that the computer is sending to my brain to do. i think the signal is for me to go do ss pt x| hahaha byebye! cya at the "real" world! (:

6:27 PM

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