I've chosen DARKNESS

ALONE
IN
THIS
DARKNESS

x FANGGER

Does this darkness have a name?

This cruelty, this hatred, how did it find us?

Did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it?

What happened to us that we now send our children into the world

Like we send young men to war, hoping for their safe return

But knowing that some would be lost along the way.

When did we lose our way?

Consumed by the shadows. Swallowed whole by the darkness.

Does this darkness have a name?

Is it your name?

There comes a time when every life goes off course.

In this desperate moment who will you be?

Will you let down your defenses and find solace in someone unexpected?

Will you reach out?

Will you face your greatest fears bravely or move forward with faith?

Or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul?

Sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life

You expect it to always be there

For you can't remember a time in your life when it wasn't.

But then one day you feel something else

Something that feels wrong, only because it's so unfamiliar.

And in that moment you realize…

You're HAPPY.

Friday, December 29, 2006

yoohoo! got home quite late yest so didnt manage to blog. so i am gonna blog about yest and today.

well for yest mostly i was at home slacking before i went out for a dinner which was organised by joycelyn, which consists of me sarah lin yiyun yitong and joycelyn hahaha.

we met at city hall andden went to suntec to eat. on the way right, we saw haslina, dian and two guys. then xiaofei told us how loser she was. she actually walked in between dian and one of the guys and the two of them were HOLDING HANDS. so she just broke them apart i guess. HAHAHA. anyway we decided on pastamania and ate for like half an hour before joycelyn came from work haha.

throughout the home time we were suaning lin like siao hahaha and yiyun said that she finally could understand why we liked to bully linlin so much hahaha. COS SHE'S JUST SO QIAN4 BIAN3! hahahha (:

after that joycelyn left and we just walked around before going to the arcade to play for a while. then lin and xiaofei left. so left the three idiots when it comes to directions. we ate ben and jerry's! then yitong was like saying she has a cough but still ate in the end. i got american apple pie which tasted damn shrugs hahaha (:

yeah and so we managed to find our way out after a real long time hahaha xD

alright as for today, it's cca orientation and i had to wake up so bloody early to be in school by 650. i set my alarm to 6 k. but when it sounded i switched it off and ended up sleeping for 20 more minutes before my dad came to wake me up. and i was like OMGWTF IT'S 620 ALREADY?! so i only had like 15 to 20 minutes to get ready and i just chionged like crazy hahaha.

met so many eightians! so happy hahah (: the tour was so tiring and my feet were dying from wearing my court shoes grr. i like my group aka 1/3 of my class (: and my class pit is very cute and nice too (:

saw mr toh and he was giving me some weird smile. like laughing me for having to be such a loser tourguide haha xD ohh and i went to visit arathi they all at the indian room xD heehee miss them so muchiiex!

then we went out for lunch at far east before rushing back for debrief. as usual debrief was boring haha. after that we had training and it was a lil better bcos of t&d comm's funny training (:

btw the prefects are like on booking spree today. andrea was crying cos she got booked thrice for the same category. cheer up babe! but some juniors are real rubbish lah! they wear dangling earrings and wear their cca shirt or whatever school approved shirt with MINISKIRT. like what the hell are you stupid or are you stupid?! they deserve to get booked man. but apparently the prefects have booked like 20 ppl after ccao has started for only 1 hour! like craziness. i almost got booked twice. i was wearing illegal studs and xiner just reminded me that they are illegal. thanks babe for being so lenient with me nehxx! i wun dorrit again (: andden after i changed out of my formal uniform and was still folding my sleeves kristin came to ask me where my nametag was. like chotto matte kudasai! let me finish tidying up my attire lah. i got bring one can (: so phew didnt get booked nehx. so for those who got booked today i pity you that you caught the prefects on such a day hahaha. as for those losers who came dressed so shruggerly, too bad but i dun pity you xP

i love my class psls can! KOHYITONG. RENKEJIA. TANMEIJIA. JO-ANNYEO. SAMANTHAANG. TEOWEILING. KOHPINGFANG. YAY! (: they are all so cute and lag at times haha (: and be more respectful ah! wo3 ke3 bu4 shi4 hao3 qi1 fu4 de4! xD

before leaving char and i wanted to check on the psls' dance progress and it looks pretty good. KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK! AND BE ENTHUSIASTIC ABOURRIT! (:

went home with char and weiting. char's shoe is damn shrugger lah ahahah in the end she gave up and just changed back to court shoes lol.

oooh my new bed is coming at night. it's blue haha (not the colour i want but what can i do? xD my parents refused to get bright yellow and plus there was no such colour for the bed hahah) anyway when i finish packing and decorating my room i shall take photos and show u all haha (:

tmr gonna go to sch to learn our orientation item dance first before going with kevy for taiwan gathering nehx! finally i am going for one after missing like 3 of them x| sorry neh! and dun comment on my hair le lah! alot of ppl commented on it today haha (: but mostly they are just you cut your hair? hahah (: i know it looks spas lah but IT WILL GROW. hahah (:

alright that's all byeee xD

6:23 PM

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