I've chosen DARKNESS

ALONE
IN
THIS
DARKNESS

x FANGGER

Does this darkness have a name?

This cruelty, this hatred, how did it find us?

Did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it?

What happened to us that we now send our children into the world

Like we send young men to war, hoping for their safe return

But knowing that some would be lost along the way.

When did we lose our way?

Consumed by the shadows. Swallowed whole by the darkness.

Does this darkness have a name?

Is it your name?

There comes a time when every life goes off course.

In this desperate moment who will you be?

Will you let down your defenses and find solace in someone unexpected?

Will you reach out?

Will you face your greatest fears bravely or move forward with faith?

Or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul?

Sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life

You expect it to always be there

For you can't remember a time in your life when it wasn't.

But then one day you feel something else

Something that feels wrong, only because it's so unfamiliar.

And in that moment you realize…

You're HAPPY.

Saturday, March 17, 2007

wah i was posting a huge entry about convention day two and three but my com hanged so it disappeared shrugs. i cant be bothered to retype it now nyehh xD

anyway i was sick for the past few days. down with fever after having to wake up at an unearthly hour of 530 and sleeping at 1 plus?? gosh and running in the rain. that's the breast man (oops i mean the best kekex)

ohh and i went to the dentist on fri and it was the scariest thing on earth man. but don't call me a wimp yet, listen to my story xD

i went to the dentist near my house cos my tooth is hurting again. if you haven read my previous story it was because i had a baby tooth that was going to drop out but there was no adult tooth waiting so the dentist told me to leave it there till the baby tooth is gonna drop off. and meanwhile she just helped me put a filling there.

so when i went to the dentist she said that it was cos the filling was made too close to the nerve so it's affecting the nerve and thus causing the pain. like shrugs. and she said that the hole between the tooth and gum is getting big so it's advisable to extract it since it's a baby tooth anyway and was probably gonna come out soon. so she gave me a few choices: 1. implantation whereby you DRILL the fake tooth into your BONE (wah lao make it sound so scary lah!), 2. bridging whereby you take some from your molars to form a new tooth and put it in, 3. BRACES whereby you extract the tooth andden use braces to close up the gap.

then she recommended braces cos 1. is too surgical and very complicated -__-, 2. is too wasteful cos the molars are perfectly fine (duh or else why ain't i working on them??) so braces is the best! and my mom was agreeing to it and i just gave her a pained expression like zomg dun kill me! wear that thing for 2 years?!?! just for ONE PATHETIC SINGLE TOOTH? like HELL NO!

then anyway she said she wasnt sure on braces so she had to refer us to another branch. you just suck lah, all your suggestions are nonsense!

then we had to go to that branch who lead us to another nearby branch to take xrays on my teeth lol. it was damn cool i had to wear this heavy suit thing (heavier than the one i wore for the lung xray thing i had b4) andden the xray machine thing like encircled my face for like 30 seconds to take a full view of my teeth kekex.

then we went back to the clinic whereby the very nice (and gay doctor) Dr. Ho attended to me. he was a specialist in braces and b4 he came to us i heard him talking to his previous patient and he was like 'rmb to wear my rubber bands alright?' i almost burst out laughing haha xD

but he was very nice and he was like you dun needa wear braces your teeth is so straight! and i was like vigorously nodding at my mom at this comment haha xD so he recommended implantation and my mom was not very comforted by that fact. then the dentist was like making it sound so simple: 'well you just havta come extract it when it gets too unbearable and we will just have two sessions, one to extract and the other one half a year later to put on the tooth using anaesthetics and it is really easy. ' woohoo and my mom got convinced kekex.

so ends my day with NO braces in the future xD woots!

8:10 PM

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