I've chosen DARKNESS

ALONE
IN
THIS
DARKNESS

x FANGGER

Does this darkness have a name?

This cruelty, this hatred, how did it find us?

Did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it?

What happened to us that we now send our children into the world

Like we send young men to war, hoping for their safe return

But knowing that some would be lost along the way.

When did we lose our way?

Consumed by the shadows. Swallowed whole by the darkness.

Does this darkness have a name?

Is it your name?

There comes a time when every life goes off course.

In this desperate moment who will you be?

Will you let down your defenses and find solace in someone unexpected?

Will you reach out?

Will you face your greatest fears bravely or move forward with faith?

Or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul?

Sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life

You expect it to always be there

For you can't remember a time in your life when it wasn't.

But then one day you feel something else

Something that feels wrong, only because it's so unfamiliar.

And in that moment you realize…

You're HAPPY.

Monday, March 19, 2007

went mugging today at bishan library with claire and sorn. nate was supposed to come along but she had dental. you were MISSED nate! xD

we were making quite some noise lah haha and it was quite quiet there cos most ppl were at sch what.. then we felt quite bad plus claire needed lunch so we went mos.

we were discussing about claire and her beloved lah hahaha. then we mugged somemore there but sorn was being so brain dead cos she was sick. GET WELL SOON BABE! xD

i had to go training after that and when i reached safra and got to the counter it was jones there xD he dyed his hair black again! so i asked him why and he was all like 'DON'T TALK ABOUT IT' hahaha damn emo wor. he asked me whether i had braces before and i was like NO (talk about bad memories man lol) then he was like 'wah then your teeth so straight plus such a sweet smile. so jealous wor.' lol thank you thank you xD

ky was there when i went into moving target range. then matthew came. like the first time i spoke to him man lol. quite ironic since i have talked to him on msn before and stuff but whenever we go to safra we will just dao each other when we see the other person xD alice came too but it aint important. like who cares about alice right? (hahah just kidding xD)

the whole training we were just laughing away with him telling us funny stories and us gossiping and stuff lol. at one part when we were gossiping he was still like 'eh tell me leh i wanna noe too.' then we were like you dunno who they are one and he said 'tell me then i noe lah. i needa socialise man.' lol such a loser (:

our training really sucked cos we were either slacking or laughing half the time xD whenever he says hondejaja we will laugh (it's this viet guy in his class who's super comical) like how to train man?

after like 2 hours plus we decided to go home. then i went counter to book lanes for fri. then everett and some ac juniors came. they took over our lanes then matthew ky and i left first.

damn funny cos ky and i walked out of safra first then matthew came walking behind us and he was like 'eh why you all never wait for me?' in this damn pitiful voice and we were just laughing at how pathetic he sounded lol.

so we walked and talked somemore lah. he's tall man, taller than mingzhe. never knew that lol. then when we walked ppl just stared 1. cos of height 2. cos of his nationality 3. i dunnor.. looks? xD

then ky went off to take bus then matthew and i walked towards the mrt station cos he was going to take bus. he lives in yishun man but he still needa take bus lol xD then along the way we were just talking about arathi and her friend lol and math viva lol.

then i went home via mrt and him by bus. it was quite funny how much we talked the first time we actually conversed properly lol xD he's actually a really spas guy, but friendly lah. nate, hear that! (:

whee now i am working on nate's card and not doing hw haha. be honoured nate! (: and i am watching zhuan3 jiao3 yu4 dao4 ai4 (corner with love xD) i like the jap guy in there nehx! haha sorry i have a soft spot for jap guys (: but i still like xiao zhu the breast (best) worx! (:

shall finally start on work byeee xD

7:03 PM

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