I've chosen DARKNESS

ALONE
IN
THIS
DARKNESS

x FANGGER

Does this darkness have a name?

This cruelty, this hatred, how did it find us?

Did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it?

What happened to us that we now send our children into the world

Like we send young men to war, hoping for their safe return

But knowing that some would be lost along the way.

When did we lose our way?

Consumed by the shadows. Swallowed whole by the darkness.

Does this darkness have a name?

Is it your name?

There comes a time when every life goes off course.

In this desperate moment who will you be?

Will you let down your defenses and find solace in someone unexpected?

Will you reach out?

Will you face your greatest fears bravely or move forward with faith?

Or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul?

Sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life

You expect it to always be there

For you can't remember a time in your life when it wasn't.

But then one day you feel something else

Something that feels wrong, only because it's so unfamiliar.

And in that moment you realize…

You're HAPPY.

Friday, March 23, 2007

Thursday

haha i arrived at far east at 7 in the morning. and i sat outside at those stone benches while everyone stared at me lol. they must be wondering what i was doing so early in the morning, not going school but instead mugging in orchard alone lol. it's all nate's fault cos she was late! hahaha then when she arrived, we went to subway cos it was the only shop opened.

we were just eating a CHOCOLATE there, like a real PUNY spherical one and the subway woman came out and went 'SORRY NO OUTSIDE FOOD ALLOWED'. like SHRUGS lah loser so we went to buy food to prove that we were here to eat SUBWAY, like duh. then she was acting all nice and stuff, so HYPOCRITICAL man!

i mugged bio and nate mugged physics. oh and i drew the reproductive systems! admire my MASTERPIECES! xD:

male (front view):

disappeared wor grr x

male (side view):

female(front view):

female (sideview):

oh and subway is real lame:

it says at the bottom that this may contain nuts even if ingredients dun include it. instead of disclaiming it here, might as well just write in the ingredients right? dot dot...

after that the two of us went back to school for ss talk, chem remedial and hist documentary.

all three just sucked lah lol. but for hist documentary we went up to the second level of ava and were just slacking there cos the video was real lame. we were given a worksheet and so we were all poised with our pens ready to take notes when the documentary started but after half an hour there was still no link to the worksheet so we just gave up.

like zomg they gave us crap like how charcoal is made, the origin of lotus buns, bicycle business in malaysia, malaria and all other nonsense.

we either end up being a. restless b. asleep c. playing sudoku (coughs oli) d. (wanting to) sneak out (coughs oli and jo xD) etc lol.

a scene from the documentary. can you see how spasmo it is now?

CENSORED because of elaine's use of illegal content lol xD it was sheena sleeping anyway. dunno if you can see it or not actually cos the photo resolutions very lousy this time around x

anyway went training after that. weixian and i reached safra at 530 but there was no lanes so we ended up stoning with mingzhe, shi ing and sorry i dunno your name lol xD then ky came and we were just chatting there for like 2 hours till we could get the next detail. our conversation consisted of very interesting topics lol such as SLURPEE! it's yum yum lol. (you believe me? xD)

the convo was damn spas fuelled by mz's lack of fluency, his huge pencilcase with little content and constant paranoia over the arrival of coach cracked us up real bad. i laughed so bad i couldnt finish my noodles for fear of choking lol.

730 came and so we trained. saw derek and daniel chia! another botak! but he refuses to take off his cap for me to admire his new hairdo lol.

anyway we trained quite hard and all the people who were chatting before trained together so when coach suddenly popped in (we realised when we heard her WONDERFUL voice), all of us were so shocked we screwed up like crazy. it was like a chorus of 'SHIT's cos we must have jumped when we heard her voice and misfired lol. damn comical.

at 930 kevin came to rush everybody to fire their last shot cos the range is closing. ky and i still had a few shots left so we got damn panicky. then i SCREWED up in a rush to finish my remaining shots lah. stupid kevin.

then when i told him, he gave me the 'hmpf do i look like i care? serves you right' look. i was like 'hate you lah!' and he was like 'never mind' then still walked off smiling. grahh the nerve of him.

but anyway derek wanted us to go eat with him but not much time so we just went for icecream. it was his treat but we bought like super cheap icecream that added up to be like half the price of the one he bought lol.

and we walked together to the mrt station and went home. kekex that was yesterday cos when i came home i was too lazy to blog and just watched an epi of prison break and went to sleep. so here it is! time for me to sleep. i wanted to post about today but that just havta wait till tmr cos i need sleep xD NIGHTS!

10:12 PM

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