I've chosen DARKNESS

ALONE
IN
THIS
DARKNESS

x FANGGER

Does this darkness have a name?

This cruelty, this hatred, how did it find us?

Did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it?

What happened to us that we now send our children into the world

Like we send young men to war, hoping for their safe return

But knowing that some would be lost along the way.

When did we lose our way?

Consumed by the shadows. Swallowed whole by the darkness.

Does this darkness have a name?

Is it your name?

There comes a time when every life goes off course.

In this desperate moment who will you be?

Will you let down your defenses and find solace in someone unexpected?

Will you reach out?

Will you face your greatest fears bravely or move forward with faith?

Or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul?

Sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life

You expect it to always be there

For you can't remember a time in your life when it wasn't.

But then one day you feel something else

Something that feels wrong, only because it's so unfamiliar.

And in that moment you realize…

You're HAPPY.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

nate and seeepeee told me to blog. so here i am.

LIFE IS A BITCH. RGS IS A BITCH.

there you go xD

the emo wave has caught up with me x| dang everyone is feeling emo, lost, fucked up, bored of school. dang it man!

i find it ironic how when ppl in rg (or at least our cls) pons school, they are actually choosing a day when they feel that it is not impt and there arent any impt subjects that day. like wth?! ppl pon the days when they have the most dry (or so called impt) subjects. that's how screwed up our minds are already lol.

my hw is all piling up but i just simply cant be bothered. my training is slacking off and competitions are coming up but i simply cant be bothered. i start to stone and zone off in class all the time now but once again i couldnt care less.

like whatever lah.

i told nate i wanna run off to hawaii now and drink coconuts everyday and just ogle at half naked hot guys lol. just like how arathi wanna go join some tribe and become a tribeswoman.

EFF IT ALL.

nate and i were saying that we understand why ppl are getting into metal music more now. it's like such a good way of relieving stress. now when i listen to metal/rock music, i get really angsty. when i listen to slow ballads sorta stuff, i get emo. when i listen to upbeat songs, i feel grossed out. haha what to do?

i really am going hysterical. and nate says we are all insane anyway (which i agree).

OOOHHH I LOVE EVERYBODY! I LOVE THE WORLD! (see that's what i mean when i say hysterical. uber fast moodswings x|)

RG, THE LOVE OF MY LIFE. (did you actually believe that? -__-)

pardon my emoness, just move on. (:

9:23 PM

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