I've chosen DARKNESS

ALONE
IN
THIS
DARKNESS

x FANGGER

Does this darkness have a name?

This cruelty, this hatred, how did it find us?

Did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it?

What happened to us that we now send our children into the world

Like we send young men to war, hoping for their safe return

But knowing that some would be lost along the way.

When did we lose our way?

Consumed by the shadows. Swallowed whole by the darkness.

Does this darkness have a name?

Is it your name?

There comes a time when every life goes off course.

In this desperate moment who will you be?

Will you let down your defenses and find solace in someone unexpected?

Will you reach out?

Will you face your greatest fears bravely or move forward with faith?

Or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul?

Sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life

You expect it to always be there

For you can't remember a time in your life when it wasn't.

But then one day you feel something else

Something that feels wrong, only because it's so unfamiliar.

And in that moment you realize…

You're HAPPY.

Friday, June 15, 2007

it's almost 2 oclock now but i still dun feel like going to sleep.

just finished season finale of one tree hill and dang it got me so emo. the part when they were all gathered at the rivercourt was just so reminiscent i got teary-eyed xD

but looking at this reminds me of how we ourselves are gonna graduate soon, and makes me wonder whether we will be able to end off our years with a satisfactory finish. have we just been wasting our lives away? i dunno it just reflect on what i have been doing all this while and i realised i was just wasting time away and now it's time to get that fact knocked into my head and get back on track.

i am so gonna miss one tree hill these coming months. with exams imminent and no source of release, i don't know how i am gonna handle it. season 5, i am waiting so badly for you.

and baby naley (aka james lucas scott) is THE LOVE.

sighh i can't fall asleep. i was telling sipei about how i hated sleeping cos when i sleep my mind tends to wander and get many (un)necessary worries in the head. these few nights have been real bad and i end up getting super depressed, crying or suffering minor panic attacks. that's why i am still refusing bedtime now even though i have training early tmr morning. everything's just real screwed up right now - the whole shooting team thing, my mom's having trouble at work, her health, my studies. LIFE JUST SUCKS.

what happened to the light at the end of the tunnel? it just seem so bleak right now to me. i am contemplating staying up the whole night, just like during psb chalet (dang i miss those few days when i managed to just put all my worries behind me).

oh shit i promised to stop being emo. well i guess i should go to sleep. let's just hope i manage to find something to divert my attention from all the problems.

tmr's training, then shopping with sipei and ky which is gonna be good therapy and then there's the dreaded surgery for my tooth. hope i get through the weekend with my swollen mouth xD

and who wanna mug with me next week? (:

1:39 AM

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